Loneliness. Don't be afraid of loneliness. When it knocks on your door, let it in. Invite it to sit on your couch. Loneliness is there to teach you something. Loneliness will say..get out that box of cards and send someone a note; remember Trudy ? Why don't you give her a call. You haven't called her in a year; Go look in your kitchen cabinets. See all those spices, etc ? you could make a dish for Sally who twisted her ankle; How about volunteering to play games with the elderly at the nursing home ; Go for a walk. Make sure you talk to someone else who is out. Loneliness wants to teach us to get out of our shell. Yes, friends and family are busy. Yes, friends and family have moved away. Yes, friends and family have perhaps passed away. Yes, you will cry ! Maybe you are crying now ! I hate loneliness. I hate that feeling. It's like an emptiness. Something or someone is missing. You are missing them. Life has changed. Why? Why can't it stay the same ? So, I say again..Let loneliness come sit on your couch. Let it teach you something. In saying that, I am also saying it to myself. I must embrace loneliness too. And you know ? It's not forever. It gets easier, but we must most likely make some moves to help it become easier. Plus, let's not forget to tell our Heavenly Father about our loneliness. He feels our sadness.
Wednesday, June 28, 2023
EXPECTATIONS
I expected certain expectations of you
But:
it didn't turn out that way!
You didn't become what I intended
You don't think my thoughts
You don't like the things I like
You don't have the opinions I have
So now ?
Now:
comes Love!
Love, Mercy and Grace
They come marching in...
Each with a blanket !
They take their blankets called
Love , Mercy and Grace
and they cover you...completely!
You didn't become what I expected
-- what I wanted !
I'm so glad !
So GLAD that you're not another me !
THE PIT
The pit was dark and empty
forsaken , full of death
The air dank and miserable
poisonous for breath
Why have they thrown me in here?
Why do they hate me so ?
I treated them with kindness
This truth they'll always know
When will they take me out ?
When shall I be set free ?
The answer lies unknown
The answer do I plea
The pit was dark and empty
I stayed within it's depths
I contemplated freedom
with each and all my breaths
WALLS
The inside of the house had walls
Walls to keep out
Walls to keep in
Walls for protection
Walls for decoration
Some Walls took you up
Some Walls took you down
Some Walls were old
Some Walls were new
Some Walls had pictures
Some Walls were plain
Some Walls were beautiful
Some Walls were ugly
Some Walls were in transition
- part up, part torn down
The Builder had a plan
The Architect had a plan
But, the home owner kept changing his mind
The homeowner hadn't decided
what will make him happy...
despite painful choices.
A DREAM
I had a dream - once
Now I have nothing
Just me, alone
Day to Day
Wandering from
Nothing to nothing
I have hopes - now
for my children
Maybe they can fulfill
a dream they have
Perhaps I can help them
Even though my dreams are gone
And I just live
Just me, alone
Day to Day
LISTS
We have our lists, our endless lists:
OF...
- people we like
-shopping of groceries
-documents on PDF
-to do's for the day
-repairs of things broken
-Bucket list before I'm old
-events and parties
-wish list on Amazon
-people to invite over
-customers with needs
-friends who need advice
-people we pray for
-situations we pray for
-countries I've visited
-countries I want to visit
-places I've walked
-family Birthdays
-extended family names
We drive ourselves crazy with our lists. But... we can't live without them.